Sunday 12 January 2014

Loving My Life! :-)

I dunno what really compelled me to write this post but anyways I am glad to post it...

Life is being dynamic and eventful... before two years I used to say I am not happy with my life because of whatever reasons... I also had a fear in my mind that leaving it might leave me with regrets as the future is always uncertain...


As far as my present is concerned, touch-wood, I am happy :-)


Yes, life is full of ups and downs, successes and failures... surrounded by people who make you or break you.... Politics.... dirty games and so on..
But, whatever it may be I believe everything in life happens for a reason... Its good or bad is decided by the outlook we carry... 

It will be unfair if I'll say- I hate it when people around me play unfair games and make my life even more complicated.... I wish I could punch them hard on their face..


I would rather say- Yes, I do hate the dirt around but I am learning to fight for it... As life can not be a piece of cake every time, so meeting such people prepares me to fight for what is right and enable me to learn more about humans. (Of course, I'll always be an Anthropologist) ;-)


Well, no regrets from life... Although, I lost some people in my life..because they do not deserve me anymore now..


New in life is nothing much.... Or I would say so much that I am unable to gather it and jot it down.. ;-)


I keep meeting new people daily.. And like it...
I am still a kid without any change so far in my thought processes... So, that ways I do face problems... Specially by trusting wrong people most of the times.. but that is again an integral part of life.. So, no complaints.

Last year, I used to feel that some part of me was not living or rather say was dead/dormant... Now, I feel... I can sense it... I am the same AKSHI that I used be 2 years ago... :D


I feel things, good and bad... I m loving shopping again....... Hanging out... I can feel feelings... praise music... appreciate beauty... And, I watch every interesting movie on its release weekend without a fail... I cherish my life... I love being busy... I love myself... I love my people..
I am in love with my life because someone iz my life....

May be I am too confused what all to write and what not....
But.. I'll try to write more as it helps me a lot personally to figure out what I am feeling... I can express well in words... in my mind emotions and thoughts are very vague and random... I can compile them in a post and analyse... :))


I'll end it here now, once again.. Thank You dear God... for everything you gave me... forgive me for the bad things I do intentionally/unintentionally.... I'll always be your favorite kid who will never do any wrong to anyone knowingly.. Please be there on my side and take care of my loved ones... Love you.. Muaah.. :-)

I WISH..!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I could fly...
I wish I could be invisible...
I wish I could turn back time..
I wish to do so much in life...

I wish.... I wish to be a person without any wishes..!

They say "Everything that is done in the World is done by Hope".. And with every hope comes a wish to turn that hope into a reality...

No matter how old I'll ever be... I know.. I will be a Girl who'll always believe in miracles and will always be in love with life.

Sometimes, I feel I wish so much in life... So many desires and hopes I have inside me... it makes me feel restless & fidgety.. I try to run from something unknown... 

Although, I know every human being wishes something or the other.. and if our one wish is fulfilled we are ready with more wishes.. 

I don't know how intensely people wish things but I know about myself... When I am into something.. I am into it... I wish it I want it and unless I get it I remain restless... I understand all wishes can't come true... God has his own limitations and targets depends upon the 'Karma' thing... But, at times I find it super difficult to come out of the situations..

May be its a side effect of being ambitious or crazy or black coffee or simply being me...!!

Today, I wish so many things... that I feel lost.. I ask myself what am I doing today.... Is this the right path to walk upon...appropriate direction to walk into... It makes feel uneasy... May be I am too impatient!

Well.. No matter whatever I wish... My first and last wish will always be 'to make everyone happy' and I can never be happy unless my people are happy.... 

I don't know... What all I am writing... :P

***************wink wink******************

F.R.I.E.N.D.S Forever!

Today while I'm sitting, I realized that I have to dedicated any post to the people who deserve a special space in my life… It’s not very tough to count them though… 

Broadly I can say, it’s my friends & my family members…. 

But, I specifically wanna dedicate this post to my Friends ya ya names also gonna mention…..
-ARMAAN
-PALLAVI
-AKSHU
-SIMRAN
-AKASH

In the morning  I was thinking… I must have done really good deeds in past life to have people like the ones I have… Honestly, I am one of the toughest and most complicated people…. Very short tempered, bad, rude, moody and crazy… It takes hell lot of patience and concern to deal with me…. And life is busy so no one has time to devote… So, the people who undersatnds me without complaining are the ones who have spoilt me to the core… At times, they treat me like a small kid who dunno anything about life and people… And makes me realize so many things I ignore to notice… And I don’t appreciate but I love them for this.. I don’t know nor I have words to thank them for this.. :D

O dear God, I feel very privileged and lucky to have such people… It’s very difficult to find people who understand you so well… *touchwood*

I am not a very expressive girl, so, most of the times... I am unable to speak what I feel… The good I feel is mostly hidden… but the bad I feel is mostly on my face… but having such people who even understand that  the expressions are temporary and kiddish… and the feelings I posses are real and true is a pure blessing…. 

I wish to write so much… but, I am running short of words… 

I have seen and met people, who are there for you only when you are happy, but the moment you are in tough situation or in a mid of a mood swing they drop you like a hot potato… I am not criticizing such people but I must say they can’t be anybody’s friend. "People who switch their friends as per their requirement at that point of time are simply don’t deserve friendship"…. And they are like an eye-opener which makes you realize…. People can be illusive…

But, all is well when the end is well…. And there is no end to true friendships… Me and my friends do fight like kids… but that only adds on to our understanding towards each other…. And then of course, they know me so well… that we rarely need too many words to patch up…. :-)

Dear God, Thank you so much for these people in my life…. You know what you have given me… Of course, you never forget to add some negative elements in my life to give me as well..:p

But, trust me I will… Because, I know You are with me…. And My people are with me… And together we’ll win the game… Love You… Muaah.. :D  :-)

Saturday 11 January 2014

My 2013: An Overview!

Summary of 2013- 

Turned 20... changed a few things, became more social, loved my routine, Enjoyed my life, had a nice personal life.... Learnt new things.... And my state of mind was pleasant...
In Short, a great year.... Loved it.


The Questionnaire-

1. Best Moment of the year- Many good things happened but the best was "MY B'DAY" :) :)

2. Best Finding of the year- Miracles do happen!!!!!

3. Best gift of the year- Dat was by my mom "A TRIP"

4. Best Learning of the year- People you trust blindly can hurt you badly :(

5. Best Decision taken in 2013- Gussa kam krungi...:p

6. Top 2 movies of the year i liked-
- Aashiqui2
- Table No 21


7. Top 5 songs of the year-
- Tum hi ho
- Chahu mai ya na
- soryy song
- Tu hai rab mera
- Kabhi jo badal barse

8. Saddest Moment of the year- Too personal to share!

9. One bad thing happened in 2013- Something terribly bad did happen, but as they say... without certain troubles there can't be a smile.. hehehe ;-)

10. Something you loved and lost in 2013- Can't recall, I guess nothing!

11. Your long awaited desire fulfilled in 2013- wo to 2012 me hi ho gai thi..:p

12. Your Best new place visited in 2013- Dehradun and Chandigarah! It'll be an injustice to mention just one.

13. Best Dream you saw in 2013 (While sleeping)- Saw many... Can't recall one.. but my only dream iz GOD u know..;)

14. Best Family Moment of the year- All the moments when we all together..

15. Best college moment of the year- aaiiilllaaaaa...college ka to hr ek moment bestest hai...;) :)

16. One change in you from 2013- My Age :p

17. Any new habit adopted in 2013- Shhhhhhh...secret :D.

18. A wish pending for 2014- Ah.. Mannnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...................Related to my future..

Anybody reading this post is free to copy and fill the questionnaire to post it on their blog… Cheers!

GOD'S THANKFUL..:) :)

Time is moving pretty fast…..my 5th semester is over just like that…. Enjoying…. Having fun….. Exploring new opportunities….. And with time the fire within me is growing stronger… and deep… More I am moving forward more I am wishing to achieve everything…. My life before 2 year was different…. 

I had an ambition since I was in school and I knew I’ll do something good…. I was precise about my career path since my school time… in class 9th I wanted to be an lieutenant  …. But my father's love for science pushed me towards science stream….. That time I wished to be an engineer…. and as the time passed i took admission in my dis college..

In starting days i was not happy..but I am still thankful to God for choosing such a wonderful thing for me…. Yes! it was chosen by God…. Entirely by Him… I nowhere… never… asked Him for this… And I was blaming Him for not giving me college of my choice of course I was not interested in dis college… 

Entered into the college life…. It was beautiful and different…. A free life….. Independence of doing whatever… a code uniform…. wid some boundaries….. No pressure…. A free bird…no fear of being raaged.. Flying high…. Learned lessons of life….. Tried every stupid thing with my new friend PALLAVI GUPTA…. nd after dat Akanksha Garg...you both are simply wowW...:) :)

As i gave the xams of my 2nd sem ..a beautiful turned was there in my life..M completely in love wid MY LOVE...<3 <3

now its fully completed ..acomplete college lyf wid armaan and
my two stupids pals n akshu..:* :*.

M a driven girl… driven by will power and passion…. And I know God is there for me…. The best thing He gave me is my mumma papa n my love…. And people around me…. I am really a *Blessed gal*… :)

I know God I blame You at times….. Emotionally blackmail You by shedding tears…. Whenever things don’t go my way I shout at You… complain…. But trust me I really love You and have complete faith in You…. From within I know You won’t do any wrong to me…. And I know each time You show me WHY You do not listen to me… I know am still your li’l kid who is too reluctant to grow up…. And I know that You still love me that way…. :D…..
You always choose THE BEST for me…. And God.. To tell You the truth… I am loving it ;)

And I know… that You know…. What I am waiting for now…. *wink wink* :D
Love you :-) :-)

THINKING HARD ABOUT LIFE..:'( :'(

Guys This poem u'll gonna sing after dis college life..:'(
..
"Thinking hard about life How it changed from a maverick college life to strict professional life…... 
How tiny pocket money changed to huge monthly paychecks but then why it gives less happiness…. 
How a few local denim jeans changed to new branded wardrobe but then why there are less occasions to use them
How a single plate of samosa changed to a full Pizza or burger But then why there is less hunger….. 

Here I am sitting in my office at night… 
Thinking hard about life How it changed….. 


How a bike always in reserve changed to a car always on but then why there are less places to go on…… 
How a small coffee shop changed to cafe coffee day but then why it feels like shop is far away….. 
How a limited prepaid card changed to postpaid package but then why there are less calls & more messages…… 
Here I am sitting in my office at night… 
Thinking hard about life How it changed….. 

How a general class journey changed to Flight journey But then why there are less vacations for enjoyment…. 
How an old assembled desktop changed to new branded laptop but then why there is less time to put it on………. 
And last But the Most Important….. 
How a small bunch of friends changed to colleageus But then why we always feel lonely & miss those college friends.…. 
Here I am sitting in my office at night… 
Thinking hard about life How it changed….. 
How it changed……."

Is it known as being successful?? 

I'M REALLY MISS MY COLLEGE DAYS..:'(


Kab Milenge Na Jaane Hum Yaaron Phir Se Sabhi
Laut Kar Ab Na Aayenge Woh Masti Bhare Din Kabhi
Ho Dil Yeh Apna Kahe Ke Aye Doston
Hu Owoo Ow I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days
I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days

Yaad Hai Woh Saare Lectures Hum Ne Jo Bunk Kiye the
Proxy Ka Pakda Jaana woh Lafde Kya Kum Kiye the
Ho Milke Likhna Woh Journals Aur Submissions Last Minute Pe

Exams Ki Woh Tayari Aur Likhna Woh Teen Ghante
Aur Baahar Aake Woh Kehna
Saala Kya Bekaar Paper Set Kiya Tha Yaar

Milta First Class Kabhi Yahan To Lagti Thi Kt Kabhi
Laut Kar Ab Na Aayenge Woh Masti Bhare Din Kabhi
Ho Dil Yeh Apna Kahe Ke Aye Doston
Hu Owoo Ow I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days
I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days

Yaad aayenge teachers, humko dilse hamesha
yaad aayega ye campus, aur iski apniye duniya
aur yaad aayege hamesha ye aashiyaa

Hu Owoo Ow I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days
I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days
I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days
I'm Really Gonna Miss This Place
I'm Gonna Miss My College Days